Some 2009 Things (in whatever order)

I started writing these things rather randomly. Every New Year's Eve I think about what I want the new year to be like. Today, though it was a moody day, I thought on and off about this past year. So I started writing about it toward the end of the night... or now... and here are some things to remember the year by. These are just things that popped into my head, not meant to be the most important things or anything. It seems anyway, every moment is just as important as every other one, really.


First off, my brother is nice. He was willing to go downstairs and fetch me some water.
First time in my life I've been told 'I love you'... it's no happy end of the year ending thou.
I finally made some actual friends at Rutgers from work (very cool ppl too) ever since I finally decided to take shifts at NCS, where I got hired me at the start of 2008!
I realized I don't wanna teach (oh yea, I taught!!) and wanna do websites instead (though that might change too)
I flipped off Dementor Lady (well it was a lot less dramatic than that but it was awesome anyway)
I liked a boy a lot again. That hasn't happened since 2007. It was just as tempestuous this time, except I was a lot braver =)
Don Tony died. It was really surreal to see him in his deathbed since when we visited them last year he was laughing with us and my grandparents, while Dona Maria said some crazy speech about Obama, a bit tipsy from the wine. I don't think I realize how real it is yet, even after the wake and seeing everyone mourn. Yet I gotta say I'm really happy I got to see Clau again. It's a selfish result, not intended to be so.
I went to China, from where I have 2 amazing memories: 1) The Yellow Mountain at night. It was cold, I had a huge red jacket on, provided by the hotel. Me and Lin were on top of a rock, at the top of the mountain (or very near anyway) and I was sipping on cheap Chinese beer while attempting to count the stars with Lin. 2) Me and Lin running to the bus after a lame tour, as the weather was suddenly changing from perfectly sunny to violent grey, trees hitting each other and the wind flapping at us as the storm was being born. Then inside the bus we marveled at the power of the angry rain hitting the bus windows. We read "The Last Question" by Isaac Asimov and listened to music together during the long stormy bus ride. I think this is when Lin really liked "Turn into" by the YYYs.
I went to the Amazon and played with monkeys. I love monkeys.
I went to Quito by myself. Me and Jaime had good times together, I especially enjoyed the wine dinner. I also really liked playing Risk with him & friends... and the way back from Cotopaxi was a delicate bittersweet I can still taste when I listen to 'Timing' by Kevin Johanson, which I first heard then too.
(Travelling is very important)
I saw the last of my cousin Galo as single.
I spent good times with Nadia, we got drunk together.
We saw a snake on the water in the beach. I think it was kinda reddish.
Margarita got married.
My mom fell in love again, with a Dutch man, I'm glad she's happy, she really deserves it.
I got turtles from Jasmin, one died while I was in EC cuz it wasn't eating. The one that survived is now obese.
I made a best guy friend. He likes to draw and write, and he loves the rain. Whenever it rains, I now always think, well at least Nat's happy.
I met a boy who also likes Belle & Sebastian and watches the Discovery channel a lot too. I wish I talked to him more but I guess I'm scared. Yea, I'm still a fool. Hopefully that will change a bit this coming year.
I have delved very deeply into B&S. They are definitely around the top in my life history and, at the moment, the closest band to all that I am in all their aspects: lyrics, music, and the sum of their parts.
Jaime helped me discover xkcd.com, and for that, I am thankful.
I gained a lot of weight this year =\
Lin and I have worked out how we differ essentially. I work from the overall blurry picture first (this is also how I draw) down to some level of detail. She works from details up to the overall picture (this is also how she draws). Basically, the way we draw happens to also define how we do many other things in regular life.
Iliana had her baby. Genarito is very calm and happy. He likes to grab people's hands and make them clap. He also really loves clapping on his own.
Jasmin had her baby too. I only saw him once though, a week after he was born.
I got a DSLR. Though I wish I had this other Lumix one instead cuz it acts just like a film SLR, with all the twists and knobs, but I'm poor.
I'm also very much in debt, 25, and still in school.
I didn't hang out with Steph so much this year, or I guess this last half of the year. I miss her. We hung out more because of the church rehearsals during Spring. Those were good times too. Great people.
I read a lot this year. Fahrenheit 451 is probably my top fave of the year although the other ones were great too. The one I'm reading now is quite profound so I must also mention it: The Unbearable Lightness of Being.
I can definitely see me getting older now but luckily looks aren't the only thing I like about myself (yea I'm vain) so hopefully my brain will be there to shine long after I've lost my beauty, and hopefully I will be able to see any bits of beauty that may still be left in me. Ok yea, this is a yearly thing so I'm totally exaggerating.
My dad has planned to come visit us next year. He wants to take a road trip to Maine (because most Stephen King stories take place there) and Washington DC. I've been excited since he first told me, that time I called him out of the blue.
I looked at some papers from 2007 and saw how much more down, nervous, and worried I was then. I'm glad I decided to work on it. I'm glad everyone's been there along the way too.


Happy 2010 then.

The Importance of Being Idle

I love the clothes and the dance moves... I wish everyone wore hats like these

The Music of The Spheres - Dr Who

The Unbearable Lightness of Being

The goals we pursue are always veiled. A girl who longs for marriage longs for something she knows nothing about. The boy who hankers after fame has no idea what fame is. The thing that gives our every move its meaning is always totally unknown to us. Sabina was unaware of the goal that lay behind her longing to betray. The unbearable lightness of being--was that the goal?

On Disintegrative States

...Disintegrative states of being occur when we are asleep, fatigued, confused, ill, or in contemplation; when we are feeling strong emotions such as passion, ecstasy, confusion, and rage; when we are flushed with creative inspiration, improvising, or in a state of flow--to name just a few. A disintegrative state, then, need not be looked upon as dysfunctional. It can occur when we become temporarily a new or different person, when our sense of self in the world--or our sense of self to our own selves-- changes or becomes suspended. A disintegrative state is a time of great potential change in a human life.

Lawlsy Train Find

My Girly Type =S

Shannyn Sossamon <3

Awesome Art by Nat

Aww... I miss The Lone Gunmen

I stumbled upon this pic online and had an X-Files nostalgia moment... I remember I loved these guys so much. There was this one scene when they show them having breakfast. Frohike is wearing an apron and serving John and Langley eggs, and I think, if I remember correctly (which is not usually the case) that Frohike was like "who wanted the over-easy?" and maybe John was like "yea that was me..." And it was all so casual and lovely as such. And later they would just go on with their awesome ninja hacks and conspiracy-ass-kicking personas either at their unpaid apartment or out into the corrupt government / corporation-ridden world... AND to later write about their discoveries in their own underground newspaper... Yea they kicked ass indeed. I also remembered I really wanted to be like them, if I could just be like them, life would be awesome. No need for children, husband, or a steady job. Just a couple of true friends ready to jump into the adventure boat with me, well into my thirties. Ravage assholes with my smarts and remain underground while at it.
Luckily, I can say I have some friends who are willing as of now ^_^

The Importance of Being Idle (Oasis)

I sold my soul for the second time

'Cause the man He don't pay me

I begged my landlord for some more time

He said "Son, the bill's waiting"

My best friend called me the other night

He said "Man - are you crazy"

My girlfriend told me to get a life

She said "Boy - you lazy"

But I don't mind

As long as there's a bed beneath the stars that shine

I'll be fine, if you give me a minute, a man's got a limit

I can't get a life if my heart's not in it

Hey Hey

I don't mind

As long as there's a bed beneath the stars that shine

I'll be fine, give me a minute, a man's got a limit

I can't get a life if my heart's not in it

Hey Hey

I lost my faith in the summer time

'Cause it don't stop raining

The sky all day is as black as night

But I'm not complaining

I begged my doctor for one more line

He said "Son - words fail me"

It ain't no place to be killing time

I guess, I'm just lazy

I don't mind

As long as there's a bed beneath the stars that shine

I'll be fine, if you give me a minute, a man's got a limit

I can't get a life if my heart's not in it

Hey Hey

From 'Together' (The Raconteurs)

You want everything to be just like

The stories that you read, but never write

You've gotta learn to live and live and learn

You've gotta learn to give and wait your turn

Or you'll get burned

...

I'm adding something new to the mixture

So there's a different hue to your picture

A different ending to this fairytale

And no sunset into which we sail

A Short Dictionary of Misunderstood Words (From TULoB)

WOMAN

Being a woman is a fate Sabina did not choose. What we have not chosen we cannot consider either our merit or our failure. Sabina believed that she had to assume the correct attitude to her unchosen fate. To rebel against being born a woman seemed as foolish to her as to take pride in it.

sigh...

'Secrets,' from xkcd.com

sandpc & a.pink.mist (basically, in stick-figure essence)

'Nihilism' from xkcd.com

Cool...

'Secret Worlds' from xkcd.com