Current Mood: tired... cuz I just got out of work. I will sound like my dad if I start to say what my work is like. The funny thing is when I tried explaining it to him that I feel the way he does lately about work, he responded immediately with how his job is, which he has told me before countless of times, I guess I was hoping he could see that I relate to him at the moment, but it didn't happen, maybe I didn't try hard enough... oh well.
I wanted to write on my blog like this again, I haven't done it in a really long time I know. I guess I should try to explain why. There was a point where I felt like I just didn't agree with half of the things I wrote a little bit after I wrote them. And the idea that these things might linger on any readers' minds forming the image of who I am bothered me. I guess I felt quite guilty at how much I change my mind cuz sometimes I say things with a lot of conviction. Then it's kinda like, well now I dont believe any of it. So I felt bad about that. From what I can recall that was mostly why. Then I felt really confused. If I keep changing my mind so often, who am I ever? So I started to just post collections that I gathered from the outside world that felt true to me. I felt like they could express what I feel better than I could myself. I guess I also might have gotten lazy to try and voice my interpretation of the things I posted. Also I felt it would be kinda cool to keep the reader (if any) guessing as to what I actually meant, and that they might ask me. I dont think that really ever happened thou lol. Please dont feel bad (jaime, haha, basically my one reader, and the one or two people who pass by from time to time to take a peek, I appreciate all you guys, really).
But yea, I'm thinking I might start writing again because lately, probably from being so tired, the only thing I feel capable of doing on my free time is reading and writing. I might take it all down later, who knows.
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