6/26/10
How I fell asleep under a tree...
Current Mood: half-awake only...
So I'm at the lab since I'm working Saturdays here all day... and I finished one of the tasks on my to-do list and thought, well before continuing on to the following ones, I'll just take a break and read a little. I was about to go to this spot where there are trees and stone benches but it was really sunny. So then I remembered my favorite spot in school. It's this sort of hallway with trees and more stone benches on the side. There there's my favorite tree and bench under it. So I just lied there, first checking to make sure there were no tiny red bugs which like to hang around in stone benches, and I do not know why, they're made of stone bugs! But yea, so I just lied there and had my book in my hand (currently, 'The Joy of Living' by Yongey Mingyur Rinpoche, which is essentially a Buddhist book, but it's really cool cuz it talks about how Buddhism and Science intersect) and well I've read about 50 pages in and wanna keep reading it constantly, but I'm regularly so tired, and that apparently wasn't different just now, esp cuz of the nice cool shade under the tree, me lying on top of the nice cool stone, and with the nice cool wind on an otherwise hot day, well I just closed my eyes thinking I'd enjoy the moment, when soon enough I had entered the sleeping realm... well not sure if I dreamt but it was certainly enjoyable. It's a really nice day outside, glad I got to taste at least a little of it, and I do hope I'll get some more of it when I'm done with work.
I got Mariam's party tonight, which honestly I'm not feeling really in the mood of going. Socializing takes A LOT of energy from me, and as it is apparent I do not have much of that lately. I'll prob just be quiet around watching people be on their merry ways and I guess they'll make me laugh. Hopefully no one minds my quiet ways... even if I end up reading a book, or more likely, falling asleep -__- ...
So I'm at the lab since I'm working Saturdays here all day... and I finished one of the tasks on my to-do list and thought, well before continuing on to the following ones, I'll just take a break and read a little. I was about to go to this spot where there are trees and stone benches but it was really sunny. So then I remembered my favorite spot in school. It's this sort of hallway with trees and more stone benches on the side. There there's my favorite tree and bench under it. So I just lied there, first checking to make sure there were no tiny red bugs which like to hang around in stone benches, and I do not know why, they're made of stone bugs! But yea, so I just lied there and had my book in my hand (currently, 'The Joy of Living' by Yongey Mingyur Rinpoche, which is essentially a Buddhist book, but it's really cool cuz it talks about how Buddhism and Science intersect) and well I've read about 50 pages in and wanna keep reading it constantly, but I'm regularly so tired, and that apparently wasn't different just now, esp cuz of the nice cool shade under the tree, me lying on top of the nice cool stone, and with the nice cool wind on an otherwise hot day, well I just closed my eyes thinking I'd enjoy the moment, when soon enough I had entered the sleeping realm... well not sure if I dreamt but it was certainly enjoyable. It's a really nice day outside, glad I got to taste at least a little of it, and I do hope I'll get some more of it when I'm done with work.
I got Mariam's party tonight, which honestly I'm not feeling really in the mood of going. Socializing takes A LOT of energy from me, and as it is apparent I do not have much of that lately. I'll prob just be quiet around watching people be on their merry ways and I guess they'll make me laugh. Hopefully no one minds my quiet ways... even if I end up reading a book, or more likely, falling asleep -__- ...
6/23/10
back to writing...maybe
Current Mood: tired... cuz I just got out of work. I will sound like my dad if I start to say what my work is like. The funny thing is when I tried explaining it to him that I feel the way he does lately about work, he responded immediately with how his job is, which he has told me before countless of times, I guess I was hoping he could see that I relate to him at the moment, but it didn't happen, maybe I didn't try hard enough... oh well.
I wanted to write on my blog like this again, I haven't done it in a really long time I know. I guess I should try to explain why. There was a point where I felt like I just didn't agree with half of the things I wrote a little bit after I wrote them. And the idea that these things might linger on any readers' minds forming the image of who I am bothered me. I guess I felt quite guilty at how much I change my mind cuz sometimes I say things with a lot of conviction. Then it's kinda like, well now I dont believe any of it. So I felt bad about that. From what I can recall that was mostly why. Then I felt really confused. If I keep changing my mind so often, who am I ever? So I started to just post collections that I gathered from the outside world that felt true to me. I felt like they could express what I feel better than I could myself. I guess I also might have gotten lazy to try and voice my interpretation of the things I posted. Also I felt it would be kinda cool to keep the reader (if any) guessing as to what I actually meant, and that they might ask me. I dont think that really ever happened thou lol. Please dont feel bad (jaime, haha, basically my one reader, and the one or two people who pass by from time to time to take a peek, I appreciate all you guys, really).
But yea, I'm thinking I might start writing again because lately, probably from being so tired, the only thing I feel capable of doing on my free time is reading and writing. I might take it all down later, who knows.
I wanted to write on my blog like this again, I haven't done it in a really long time I know. I guess I should try to explain why. There was a point where I felt like I just didn't agree with half of the things I wrote a little bit after I wrote them. And the idea that these things might linger on any readers' minds forming the image of who I am bothered me. I guess I felt quite guilty at how much I change my mind cuz sometimes I say things with a lot of conviction. Then it's kinda like, well now I dont believe any of it. So I felt bad about that. From what I can recall that was mostly why. Then I felt really confused. If I keep changing my mind so often, who am I ever? So I started to just post collections that I gathered from the outside world that felt true to me. I felt like they could express what I feel better than I could myself. I guess I also might have gotten lazy to try and voice my interpretation of the things I posted. Also I felt it would be kinda cool to keep the reader (if any) guessing as to what I actually meant, and that they might ask me. I dont think that really ever happened thou lol. Please dont feel bad (jaime, haha, basically my one reader, and the one or two people who pass by from time to time to take a peek, I appreciate all you guys, really).
But yea, I'm thinking I might start writing again because lately, probably from being so tired, the only thing I feel capable of doing on my free time is reading and writing. I might take it all down later, who knows.
6/13/10
Which D&D character are you?
You Are A:
Chaotic Neutral Elf Sorcerer (4th Level)
Ability Scores:
Strength- 13
Dexterity- 12
Constitution- 13
Intelligence- 16
Wisdom- 15
Charisma- 13
Alignment:
Chaotic Neutral- A chaotic neutral character follows his whims. He is an individualist first and last. He values his own liberty but doesn't strive to protect others' freedom. He avoids authority, resents restrictions, and challenges traditions. A chaotic neutral character does not intentionally disrupt organizations as part of a campaign of anarchy. To do so, he would have to be motivated either by good (and a desire to liberate others) or evil (and a desire to make those different from himself suffer). A chaotic neutral character may be unpredictable, but his behavior is not totally random. He is not as likely to jump off a bridge as to cross it. Chaotic neutral is the best alignment you can be because it represents true freedom from both society's restrictions and a do-gooder's zeal. However, chaotic neutral can be a dangerous alignment because it seeks to eliminate all authority, harmony, and order in society.
Race:
Elves are known for their poetry, song, and magical arts, but when danger threatens they show great skill with weapons and strategy. Elves can live to be over 700 years old and, by human standards, are slow to make friends and enemies, and even slower to forget them. Elves are slim and stand 4.5 to 5.5 feet tall. They have no facial or body hair, prefer comfortable clothes, and possess unearthly grace. Many others races find them hauntingly beautiful.
Class:
Sorcerers- Sorcerers are arcane spellcasters who manipulate magic energy with imagination and talent rather than studious discipline. They have no books, no mentors, no theories just raw power that they direct at will. Sorcerers know fewer spells than wizards do and acquire them more slowly, but they can cast individual spells more often and have no need to prepare their incantations ahead of time. Also unlike wizards, sorcerers cannot specialize in a school of magic. Since sorcerers gain their powers without undergoing the years of rigorous study that wizards go through, they have more time to learn fighting skills and are proficient with simple weapons. Charisma is very important for sorcerers; the higher their value in this ability, the higher the spell level they can cast.
You Are A:
Chaotic Neutral Elf Sorcerer (4th Level)
Ability Scores:Strength- 13
Dexterity- 12
Constitution- 13
Intelligence- 16
Wisdom- 15
Charisma- 13
Alignment:
Lawful Good ----- XXXXXXXXXXXXXX (14)
Neutral Good ---- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (15)
Chaotic Good ---- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (17)
Lawful Neutral -- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (18)
True Neutral ---- XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (19)
Chaotic Neutral - XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (21)
Lawful Evil ----- XXXXXXX (7)
Neutral Evil ---- XXXXXXXX (8)
Chaotic Evil ---- XXXXXXXXXX (10)
Law & Chaos:
Law ----- XXXXX (5)
Neutral - XXXXXX (6)
Chaos --- XXXXXXXX (8)
Good & Evil:
Good ---- XXXXXXXXX (9)
Neutral - XXXXXXXXXXXXX (13)
Evil ---- XX (2)
Race:
Human ---- XXXXXXXXXXXXX (13)
Dwarf ---- XXXXXXXX (8)
Elf ------ XXXXXXXXXXXXXX (14)
Gnome ---- XXXXXXXX (8)
Halfling - XXXXXXXX (8)
Half-Elf - XXXXXXXXXX (10)
Half-Orc - XXXXXX (6)
Class:
Barbarian - (-2)
Bard ------ (0)
Cleric ---- (-6)
Druid ----- XXXX (4)
Fighter --- (-2)
Monk ------ (-19)
Paladin --- (-21)
Ranger ---- (0)
Rogue ----- (0)
Sorcerer -- XXXXXX (6)
Wizard ---- (-2)
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